well that was the initial plan, but apparently this become a scattered space of my inconsistent ramble and incoherent mumble. I write my heart out, I throw my anger and frustation, I jotted my hopes and dreams, I record my random thoughts here

May 27, 2010

“Plantations are forests in uniform. They look like soldiers all lined up in ranks, and that is what they are. Dressed in green, they march off to the world market. The hymns that sing their praises in the name of our Mother Earth are lies. Industrial forests are to natural forests what military music is to music, and what military justice is to justice.” Eduardo Galeano, World Rainforest Movement, September 2009

May 25, 2010

my love and hate with the world of academia

My thesis has got to the point when it got really really interesting, really really complex, and really really confusing.

I can choose to do this all my life with no regret, but at the same time I am allergic to it.

I am literally start sneezing as I am writing, but as soon as I close the window, the sneeze disappear.

evolution picker

Lets face it, the theory of evolution doesnt fit the religious teaching. The religious teaching has made it blatant and obvious that we were created by god. Adam were sculpted from mud and god breathe in soul into the sculpture, then eve were created from Adam's rib as his companion.They both kicked out from heaven and dumped to earth and start breeding, populating this planet. We all know that, right?

So, the theory of evolution describe the other side of the story, they other way to climb the mount improbable, and being sculpted by god and breath-in a soul is not how us - Homo sapiens - come into being. We evolved from a single cell living organism out in the sea and we evolve, over the time span of billions of years into this advance creature that now dominate the planet. Looking back in our evolutionary traits, we shared the same ancestor as the apes. In the other words, we are animals. The difference between us and the rest of animal kingdom is we have such a high capacity to adapt to different environment and thrive.

In today's world, the flow of information is vast and technology has enable certain things that seems inconceivable in the past, its seems illogical to comprehend the idea that evolution is just a theory. The piles of proof of evolution is piling up as the scientific community obtain better understanding about the world. Nevertheless, there's always religious wings of community that refuse to accept this facts and choose to deny.

These people often falls in the "extreme" category. Choose one and not the other. Black and White.

But most of us, stand somewhere in the middle. Accepting the theory of evolution while holding hard to our stone age belief system. These religious intellectualist choose to believe the theory of evolution when it comes to other species existence, while taking the religious teaching of creationism when it comes to our being.

Isnt it weird? why our being have to be different? is it because God wants us to be special? or the whole thing is just delusion?

Admittedly, until now the scientific community is still searching for the initial starter of the evolution process, we partly know how it move forward, but how does it actually started in the first place?? what bring the non-organic material into a living creature? It was almost a complete darkness in the scientific knowledge until yesterday, for the first time in human history, a scientist created life on the lab. Its almost literally mixing a handful of chemical and voila! Life!

and now, are we playing god with god?

May 6, 2010

Indonesia forest fact

  • Fact #1: 95 percent of exports were not legal in the early nineties.
  • Fact #2: Malaysian companies have been accused of logging illegally and smuggling logs to Malaysia
  • Fact #3: Illegal logging supplies 52 percent of logs. In the mid 1990s, 84 percent of timber concession holders failed to obey the law.
  • Fact #4: Losses due to illegal logging estimated to be $3.5 per year in the mid nineties
  • Fact #5: 84 percent of timber concessionaires do not follow the law. Illegal logging is taking place in national parks
  • Fact #6: As much as 40 percent of the pulp and paper wood supplies come from undocumented sources
source: Contreras-Hermosilla (2001)
Dudes, running a country is not easy, come forward if you think you can do better.. it bugs me so much to hear you scream empty criticism from the back of your cave.

You have no idea what the hell you're talking about and being such a sectoral parochial creature that you are, you could start to get educated by looking to your left, and right.

good luck

yes, I know. I am an arrogant bitch.

May 4, 2010

a senator who dont give a shit

"any sort of price put on carbon this country done unilaterally whether by carbon tax as the the green wants or emission trading scheme will disadvantage Australian industry and will cost australian both through their hip pocket because the whole thing is based on putting your electricity price up with the hope you will pay higher and use less electricity"
- Nick Minchin;Liberal Senator for South Australia

tell me what YOU think?

just around the corner

When i logged into my email this morning, not a single strain of thought in my head thinking I will hear what I just heard. When the news delivered to my inbox, I thought it was a prank. I wish its a prank, a joke.

Do you know how it feel when someone you know so well at one stage of your life, and you lose contact when you walk through another phase of life but you know they still there, you just need to talk to them again when you come home.. but suddenly you figure out they're not.. they're no longer there.. they're gone for good..

That was how I felt when I try to get a grip with the news, it was short, one sentenced news..

"Wi, Thoriq pass away last night"

My finger quickly hit the reply button and typed, "You're joking, right?"

two seconds later I receive one word reply "Serious"

I cant hardly believe my eyes, no warning, no story, nothing. I have no bloody clue such things were near until it happen. It come and struck all of us frozen. It was hard to believe.

Sigh. letting go, again.

I still dont know how or why he die, maybe I dont want to know, maybe there are things I rather not hear.. whatever that is.. you know you have people who love you, unconditionally, Thoriq.

There's no heaven, we shall never meet again. Always be grateful with today and you shall not live in vain.
(an engraving in a cemetery in toowong, brisbane)

May 2, 2010

new toy

disclaimer: not the picture of the toy, but the evidence of its existence.. lols

birthday was a BLAST

The party..

was a total blast

I happy to be surrounded by great people, great friends who actually go EXTRA miles for me.. Lou baked me two super-ultra-awesome cakes (Apple crumble and walnut cake), organize the whole party, make nibbles and give me super-ultra-mega-awesome birthday present :)

Ross gave me the present that I've been wanting for weeks! and baked me an awesome chocolate frost, which I bite before my birthday..

the crowd was awesome and I am happy to be surrounded by such an awesome friends, can express my gratitude enough to show how much I appreciate this.. really, really awesome birthday. Thanks heaps. :)